Today was an interesting day. Motivation for most things is lacking, energy during required times lacking. But where do I find myself, awake and aware of everything around me. Over-thinking my day and the numerous sounds that I hear. I did try to be better today. I did. But the whirring of a nearby computer is screaming, “There is yet more to do!” The reminder from the road that people are still coming and going from work or activity, and I haven’t even left my yard today. But there was personal progress made today, and I can accept that.

In personal taskings, I did add a book to my close by stack. I’ll put it on my list to actually make time and read them. A constant reminder of “there is fun, make the effort” but also a mental break within arms reach. A way to escape the blinding screens, keyboards, chores, and lists. One day soon (and the following post might actually make sense after reading professional work). For now; comfy chair, glass of water, snoring dog, and the catharsis that is looking for my acorns.

I suppose today can be summed up mentally as a blur. I know things happened and what they were. I know what I did and can visibly see the results of my efforts. Other than the physical signs of “clean, moved, emptied,” I can’t say that I did anything but maintain. My sense of time is non-existent today. Woke up, took care of business, crashed out for a while, and repeated. I got through it. There is yet another day ahead, and for that opportunity, I will persevere.

The rhythmic snoring of good pup reminds me that there is good in what we do, even if it feels difficult. Without the efforts made today, there would not be a couch for him to rest on, food for his bowl, or toys for him to play with. Despite it all, we push for what we love. Could be dogs, life partners, family, hobbies, or goals we keep moving forward. Our efforts are rewarded in turn. We put in the extra hour to create an avenue for happiness. Even if we don’t realize it at the moment.

Could be overtime at work, an extra chore or two to share the load at home, or simply letting the TV be on something someone else wants to watch. That extra effort is like that “butterfly effect” they talk about. We won’t always be immediately rewarded, but when we zoom out and really think about it, these little moments create opportunities for happiness (and it might not be our own). But in that moment, we have helped ourselves or another being get through/over/away from what might be on their mind. At that moment, we provided peace and calm that someone might need to get through the next hour, day, week of their own struggle. We rarely know another person’s struggle; but everyone needs these little mental breaks sometimes. They just might not realize it yet.

This moment, this hour of introspection cleans my palate of the day, preparing me to focus anew for the next adventure. I’ll bring something better than bread-crumbs for the trail this time; and snacks, always need snacks. Make your requests now, because it could be a long trip.

One day, I will remember where I buried my acorns. Until that day, and hopefully, after we find a few acorns, let’s enjoy the journey together. Speaking of together; thank you, dear void, for allowing me to take the few minutes of your day to read this.

-LostAcorns